No one can prepare you for being a parent. No matter how many classes, books or bits of advice you are given, nothing prepares you for what's to come. We had more time to prepare than some having waited several years for Daniel to come along and still things take me by surprise.
For one I never realised how much he would be like me.
This week has been emotionally painful. Daniel has suffered an asthma attack resulting in a trip to hospital to be nebulizer, blood tested and alsorts of other checks and treatments. Dan was coughing so much he was sick, he was exhausted and he was struggling. He's only are years old and it's hard explaining to him what's going on and why. Yet turn the clock back more years than I would like to admit and I see me. A child suffering with asthma and allergies, a child struggling with food colouring (who puts colouring in kids meds ..madness !) a child so articulate usually but can't express his anxiety . I was that child, I put my mum and dad through endless sleepless nights in hospital and thousands of trips back and forth to doctors . I spent many of my early years in hospital.
It upsets me to see my son suffer and not really be able to help, I can blame myself for giving him asthma but most of all I can empathise with him, I can sit up at night with him coughing himself awake and I can share in his frustrations.
so many other parents are bravely soldiering on with poorly children...my hat goes out to you its an emotional rollercoaster and all I can do is pray for strength each day and a happy little boy .
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