parenthood !

No one can prepare you for being a parent. No matter how many classes, books or bits of advice you are given, nothing prepares you for what's to come. We had more time to prepare than some having waited several years for Daniel to come along and still things take me by surprise.

For one I never realised how much he would be like me.

This week has been emotionally painful. Daniel has suffered an asthma attack resulting in a trip to hospital to be nebulizer, blood tested and alsorts of other checks and treatments. Dan was coughing so much he was sick, he was exhausted and he was struggling. He's only are years old and it's hard explaining to him what's going on and why. Yet turn the clock back more years than I would like to admit and I see me. A child suffering with asthma and allergies, a child struggling with food colouring (who puts colouring in kids meds ..madness !) a child so articulate usually but can't express his anxiety . I was that child, I put my mum and dad through endless sleepless nights in hospital and thousands of trips back and forth to doctors . I spent many of my early years in hospital.

It upsets me to see my son suffer and not really be able to help, I can blame myself for giving him asthma but most of all I can empathise with him, I can sit up at night with him coughing himself awake and I can share in his frustrations.
so many other parents are bravely soldiering on with poorly children...my hat goes out to you its an emotional rollercoaster and all I can do is pray for strength each day and a happy little boy .

When 2 worlds collide

It sounds like the title of a song...maybe I could commission it, maybe it has been written already...but today it happened.

 

This morning I had the real pleasure of  talking at 2 services in St. Helen's Cliffe. Part of my job means that the 1st Sunday of every month I get to go to different churches in the deanery ( anyone who will have me basically!) We were thinking about Education Sunday and Candlemas!

 

I was feeling really quite nervous about today, not because I was visiting a different church, not because I was worried so much about the subject although it had been playing on my mind, but because I used to work with the headteacher of the local primary school.

 

It is really weird when things from different aspects of your life come together. Viv was my partner teacher when I was an NQT someone I really respected and admired and I just didn't want to show myself up/ let myself down/ distract from the message I was giving... Nervous beyond believe!!

 

Today though was amazing, beyond my wildest dreams. It was so wonderful to see Viv and her husband Chris again, it was lovely to be in a place that was so relaxed not so formal and full of life and worship. It was so lovely to be able to share in something I am so passionate about with others and most of all reconnect with Viv.

 

Having always moved around with dad's work I thought I had gotten used to having people come and go in my life but I'm not sure I ever will. I love people, I love the friends I have made along the way but there are so many I miss. It can be such a lonely job and makes me appreciate the friends I have to all those who have been in and are a part of my life....thank you one and all x