It’s been a long time since I’ve been able to write…. A REALLY. A Long time !!! There are so many words within me but for many reasons I’ve not been able to say them. But tonight I feel compelled to.
My heart is feeling immensely heavy … maybe even broken ! It has been such an emotional day probably world wide .. but today , this morning just as I was helping Elijah get dressed I received the worst phone call … a very very dear friend to me had died and despite her being in hospital 8 weeks and receiving the worst diagnosis a few days ago , I still wasn’t expecting her to die so soon , I wasn’t prepared or ready . Friends are hard to come by and she was such a special one who got me … one of my last messages to her was that she was the Tigger to my Winnie the Pooh . We led all age worship together, chaplained our Special school together, went to Greenbelt together and drank gin !! She got me !! ( rate when you’re a priest !)
And once I’d spoken to the family , made many pastoral calls to church friends I called my mum and lost it hysterically .. tears poured and my boys comforted me amidst there own sadness .
We watched the Queen’s funeral with me some of our church who too were going through their own grief or loneliness and sitting in church just felt like the right place to be . Remembering my faithful Christian friend on the day of the Queen’s funeral seemed perfect .. both such faithful servants of Jesus !
Tonight I said sorry to the boys for being upset and Dan said it was very healthy to show our sadness for soemone we loved .. that boy amazes me time and again … Elijah found his Marty church mouse puppet just like Anne used in all age and talked to him about his sadness !
We all grieve in different ways , death wether close or distant brings triggers and memories back … what I’ve learnt today is that it’s really important to be together when sad things happen, to share memories together and to leave each day as if it’s your last because tomorrow isn’t guaranteed ! Oh and that Great Britain puts on an amazing royal Occasion !
God bless you your Majesty , God bless you Anne my dear dear friend I shall miss you immensely !!! May you both rest in peace and rise in glory xx
