I feel like an emotional wreck! The last few days have been a real roller coaster of emotion. Last week mum had to go into hospital for an operation. It is horrid to see someone you love looking so anxious and scared and not being able to do anything, I spent a very stressful day waiting for news and during a meeting the text came through to say she was ok. Like any operation it comes with pain and after care and it has been so difficult watching her in pain.
My emotions just about recovered when Sunday came and the time to say goodbye to my vicar arrived. The day was again full of emotion, having to lead services of farewell and hold it together in order to help everyone else cope with the day.
My vicar has been an amazing source of inspiration in pastoral care and training. I have been really grateful to him for all he has taught me and I will miss his support and guidance. As I woke up this morning I feel like I have experienced a bereavement. I know it sounds very dramatic but it does feel like someone dear has gone. It probably feels worse because I now feel some sort of responsibility for the parish until a new vicar is put into position...no pressure!
All this and a mother's day to contend with, a day when I woke up my lovely 4 year old said "mummy you have to stay in bed its a special day!" unfortunately not for someone who works for the church! Amidst all the stress and angst Daniel has been my ray of light keeping me going, making me smile and giving the best cuddles ever.
Life has its ups and downs and am grateful to those who support me amidst the chaos of this wonderful life!!
