Today was horrid! I had flash backs to when Daniel was a baby and admitted to hospital with asthma and a vision of what it must have been like for my parents with me as a child. Elijah has bronchilitus and is struggling to sleep, eat and at times breathe, it makes him very vulnerable as well as very grumpy!
Today I spent in the hands of the NHS in various forms and witnessed the pressure these doctors and nurses are under. One dr was continually called out of a consultation and asked to do a 24 hour shift due to a lack of staff..how can that be good for her or her patients . Whilst at the hospital I also felt very vulnerable and isolated , there was nowhere to get a drink without leaving the ward in search of a shop and I obviously couldn't leave Elijah, there was no cot to safely lie him in so I didn't have a toilet break for over 6 hours and people just don't have the time to chat to you . I am thankful for my mobile phone and those I managed to get quick arrow messages to for company but frustrated that my battery had 15% on it for some time and so ahd to limit even that communication.
Having missed most of my dad's Caribbean birthday meal celebration I managed to get there for the end of the meal a lovely array of goodies created by mum and had a sneaky swig of some much needed rum punch!
Tonight I lie , with Elijah in his cot next to me , praying he sleeps for more than an hour or two to give him the respite he needs but just in case have sent marc to the spare room so at least one of us may get a decent rest ...the joy of being a parent....its mightily you at times !
No comments:
Post a Comment